I have less then a week to finish preparing my house. Preparing my house for a 5 hour inch by inch inspection to judge David and I and our home to see if we are suitable to care for foster children. I am so excited but super nervous. We have worked so hard to get this far and we have been looking forward to adopting for a few years now. I would be heartbroken if something stopped us from being licensed now. This is the last step of the process. In three weeks we could have our first placement. I hate calling it that but there just simply isn't a better term.
Everyone working in the system calls it a placement and considering that we don't know how many or what gender child/children will be placed with us, it is easier to just say placement. I don't know why I am so nervous. Our home is safe. We are good parents and we don't have anything to hide. For some reason I still am having nightmares and constantly worrying about the million things that I want to finish before the morning of. My todo list has gotten so long that for the last two days I pretty much did nothing. I have a habbit of that. I get so overwhelmed by all the things taht I want and need to do that I just shut down and do nothing. I spend the whole day playing with the kids and napping then I wonder where the hours went.
I am determined to get a few of the most important items crossed off of my check list tomorrow. It will be a good day and I will make progress! That is me, making myself accountable to someone other then myself so that I will actually do it :) Guess I should do some home work now. Another thing I have been avoiding.
Until we meet again...